Sunday, January 20, 2013

On wedding dresses.

Decisions are hard. Especially about really big things, like your own wedding.

I went dress shopping (well, just looking and trying on actually) yesterday with my mum and sis. It was really fun to try on some real wedding dresses and feel like a princess and everything, and I did find one dress that I really liked. There's just two things that bother me.

One is the price tag. Wedding dresses (and honestly just about most things about weddings) are really expensive, and it makes me a bit uncomfortable spending so much money on "just a dress that you can only wear for one day in your life".
The other is the fact that maybe it isn't "special" enough. Like every bride, I'd love for our wedding to be something unique, and the wedding dress is an essential part that contributes to all the uniqueness. I know some people who are really good at sewing, so maybe I should ask them to help me with (read: do most of the work) making one? But then again, what if it's too hard, and I just decide on something easier and less special because it's less frustrating to make, but I'll end up regretting not having the dress I really wanted?

What do you guys think?

Friday, January 11, 2013

2/4.

I'm halfway my penultimate exam period, and I feel great! My 4 exams are pretty well spread over 3 weeks, so I'm not nearly as stressed as usual. (Except for the issue where I started grinding my teeth all the time. Not sure where that came from.)
This gives me lots of time to reflect (and some to procrastinate, sadly) and think about how much I love studying, and my courses, and looking forward to doing something useful with all of this. My studies inspire me and encourage me to look up more details or different applications. It's been a long time since I felt this way about studying and learning in general.


So, all in all, life is looking good, and I feel like I'm well on schedule with everything! If only a few years ago I would have realized how happy I would be right now...

To everyone whose life isn't going particularly well right now: don't worry. Somehow, if you really want it, things will work out. And it will be worth it. Just remember to keep people who make you better as a person close to you, and lose the others. You will hardly remember them in a few years.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

I can totally HTML.

(And also CSS and PHP and SQL.)

I just made a small website with a database and a search engine. For those of you who don't know me: not that I'm bad with computers, but I don't think I know much about them that the average user/gamer doesn't. So I never thought I'd be able to do this, to be honest, but I did have some help from my wonderful fiancé.
Between all this time of studying and cramming information into my head that I'll probably never use again, actually creating something feels good! I learned something new, and I made something awesome with it: a small library, with my own books in it. 
Working on these kinds of small, new projects is just what I need to keep myself going. Exam times are always hard; studying isn't really my thing. But I love my studies, so in the end it's all worth it.

Sorry for the not-so-useful post, I promise there'll be better stuff once exams are over. 17 days to go!
And to all those in the same situation: don't give up! Remember, you have no one to prove yourself to, but yourself!